Dear Matt,
 
The previous post introduced the concept of a holographic reality. This post discusses the language and commands and how to use them.
 
First, I’ll define intention.
 
Intention is a state of being wherein you commit to a specific course of action or a desired outcome. From a physical perspective intention is the information that precedes and directs the energy that creates action. In physics, it would correspond to a vector or a coordinate within a three-dimensional grid, or the wave function within a field. (the reason for the math references will become apparent later).
 
Next, let’s assume that I create my intention with thoughts and convey my intention with words.
 
Hmm….funny, I think I heard that somewhere before…”and God said let there be light, and there was light”, or how about this one “…and God said it was good.”
 
Maybe this isn’t such a new theory after all. But I digress.
 
Now that I’ve established that my intention is the information and my words are the commands I can see how easy it is to make a mess. Thank God there’s some sort of delay built into the system because it would be quite the scene if every thought in my head immediately populated my reality.
 
If thoughts and words are the basis of reality, then it would be wise for me to watch what I think and choose my words wisely.
 
Watch what I think implies three things.

1. I can observe my own thoughts (this is called metacognition).
2. I can select between thoughts (the observer effect).
3. I can choose to attend to those thoughts that support my intention.

 
Choosing my words wisely implies two more things.

1. I must speak in intended outcomes.
2. The literal meaning of words matters.

 
How do I speak in intended outcomes?  I use affirmative phrases to express the desired end state. For example, if I desire an ice cream cone I say, “I desire an ice cream cone.”  It does me no good to say, “I want an ice cream cone,” because that is my current undesired state. Wanting an ice cream cone is the same as not having it. When I say “I want” it simply commands reality to maintain the condition of lacking ice cream cones.
 
And that brings up the topic for my next point. What happens if my head is full of negative thoughts and my speech is filled with negative talk?
 
How do I clean up my thoughts?  That’s the topic for the next post.

​Dear Matt,
 
I have a theory and a challenge for you.

A few years ago, I came across a quantum physics theory which suggests that our three-dimensional reality could be a projection of our internal belief structure and our thoughts about ourselves.
 
The theory suggests that reality is our own intention expressed as a dynamic internally generated holographic simulation projected outward from our perspective rather than an inwardly directed external experience.
 
Sounds crazy, I know. 

Before you get all pissed off and say that’s just a deeply narcissistic rehashed solipsistic worldview, hear me out. I think there are some interesting lessons to be learned.

Let’s pretend reality IS an interactive holographic projection originating from within our unique perspective and directed by our own intention.

Three things must be true. 
 

1. We must be the creator of our own experience.
2. We must also be an observer of the reality we create.
3. Something or someone came before and set the whole thing up.

 
IF those things are true, then the following statements must also be true.
 

1. The hologram is interactive.
2. There are a set of commands with which you direct the experience.
3. Someone else is watching.

 
This leads to some interesting possibilities.
 

1. You are responsible for your own life.
2. No one else can do it for you.
3. You get out what you put in.
4. Intention is the language and words are the commands
5. There must be a first I AM (i.e. GOD) who set the whole thing up.

 
If reality is a holographic projection that originates from within the observer, then confirmation bias is not an error, it’s a tool.
 
Said another way, if you believe it, then you are right. If you think you’re gonna fail, you’re right. If you think you’re going to succeed, you’re right. If you think the medicine will help you, it will. If you think it won’t help you, it won’t.  It turns the placebo effect on its head.
 
And that brings up the tricky part of the theory – What is the language and what are the commands of this crazy reality projector?
 
And that’s the challenge my young friend. Your job is to master the language and learn the commands.

Dear Matt,

You will go through divorce. You have my permission to do it. You needed to do it. You didn't know. 

You will meet a woman. You will know it's her. You will see her picture and realize you've been looking for her your whole life. You thought you found her the first time but that was for a different purpose. You had to go through that experience to have your children and give them the same opportunity you had. You came out the other side with a new understanding of yourself and the people around you. 

You will marry this woman. She will teach you more. She will support you. She loves you and she wrote you this letter. It echoes many of the same sentiments you'll read in this blog.

Here's the letter from Elaine.

Going down the spiritual path?  Good freaking luck.  You'll need it.  For so many the “spiritual path” seems like a good idea.  I’m not saying it’s not, but just be ready for your life to change.

Whether you’re financially secure, or not, won’t matter.  I take that back.  For some it WILL matter.  You’ll lose everything, along with your sanity.  Talking about losing things, let me give you a heads up on other things you’ll lose:  Friends, jobs, houses, and maybe even relationships with family members.  Sound awful?  It is.  But now let me give you what you can gain:  Friends, jobs, houses, and maybe even relationships with family members.

Going down the spiritual path is not for the faint-hearted.  It’s actually for those that are outrageously strong and courageous to figure it all out.  It’s facing the skeletons in their closet, and the possibilities of losing face with those that once looked up to them.  Going through the layers of purging isn’t easy.  When ascending, which is ultimately a rise in vibration, things that don’t serve you any longer will fall to the wayside.  Behavior that was once a habitual routine on Friday night, will no longer meet your desires.  Your friends that you would get “wasted” with will suddenly feel like a burden to be around.  Your home, or decorations/colors inside your home, won’t feel good to you any longer.  Even foods, particularly processed food, will make you sick.  You’ll question your sanity at times, and wonder if you’re making the right decision.  It’s a journey.  A marathon.  There is nothing quick about it.  Don’t expect miracles overnight, although they do happen.  When manifesting a better job, you might walk into your current job with a pink slip waiting on your desk.  Ask and you shall receive they say.  So, be careful what you ask for.  Attach the phrase, “all in God’s grace, in perfect timing, please and thank you” to your prayers.  It makes a difference.  Your angels want to know that you appreciate their hard work.

Is the spiritual path worth it?  Yes.  You’ll be better for it.  Is it easy?  Heck no.  Can you go back?  Nope.  It’s been said that ignorance is bliss.  I believe this to be true.  Once you know the things you’ll learn, it’s impossible to forget.  You won’t want to go back.  The path is narrow and sometimes lonely, my friends.  May you be blessed to find your way.

​Everything is energy
 
Matter is energy condensed into a slow vibration.
 
Substance is the effect of light and sound acting on our senses.
 
Reality is perception.
 
Reality is not truth.
 
Humanity is your birth
 
Humanity is your training

Humanity is your opportunity

Humanity is your challenge
 
Humanity is enslaved.

Humans enslave each other.
 
Humanity loves its enslavement.

Humanity knows only the idea of freedom, they have not experienced it.
 
Humanity knows only the idea of justice, they have not received it.
 
Money is Debt
 
Doctors are disease
 
The law is used for crime

Education is programming
 
Entertainment is conditioning
 
Social media is propaganda
 
Psychopaths occupy key control points in society
 
Truth is hidden
 
The masses are asleep
 
Don’t bother to wake them up. They’re dead.

Let the dead bury the dead.

Keep moving.

Hurdle the weak and trample the dead.

You will find truth.
 
You will find it within.

Feel

You must feel.

That which you do not feel, you save.

You save to feel it later.

If you do not feel, you are dead.
 
When you arise, you will feel.

You will want to be dead.

Do not fight the feelings.

Observe them. Listen to the stories they tell.
 
Observe them from your center.
 
That part of you that never moves.
 
The still small voice.
 
The still small voice is you.
 
The still small voice is God in you.
 
The still small voice is spirit.
 
The still small voice knows the pain.
 
The still small voice knows the truth.
 
Your stories are not the truth.
 
Your stories are your illusion.

Truth can only be known in the heart.
 
Listen to the still small voice.
 
It will guide you through the break downs.
 
The breakdowns will begin when you choose to live in the truth.

Breakdowns make room for the truth.

Your reality is not the truth because truth cannot be understood through perception.
 
Every living being projects their reality.

Society is nothing more than the combined effect of billions of illusions.
 
Everything you think you know is a construct.
 
Thinking is not helpful.
 
Your mind is not capable of creating, only organizing.
 
Your mind is not in your head.
 
Your thoughts are not from your mind.
 
Your heart is the center.

Live from your heart.
 
Living from the heart causes breakdowns.

Do not worry.
 
Fear nothing for nothing is real, even death.
 
Death is another beginning.
 
Change is the only constant.
 
Learn how to become the change.
 
How do you become change?
 
Know your true self.
 
Find your true self within.
 
Release your past.
 
Begin again.
 
Do it right.
 
Reality is a projection.
 
You choose what happens to you
 
You came to learn how to do this

The goal is experience
 
The goal is disillusionment
 
The goal is feeling
 
The goal is meaning

The goal is transformation
 
The goal is ascension
 
You will struggle
 
The purpose of struggle is break out of your illusions
 
Breakdowns precede Breakthroughs
 
illusions break down when they fail to explain what you feel
 
Illusions break down when
 
Breakdowns occur within the illusion, not within you.
 
Breakthroughs occur when you upgrade your illusion
 
You build your illusion based on your feelings and what you believe
 
You will continue to upgrade your illusion until you have no need for illusions.
 
You will continue to experience breakdowns until you learn that your beliefs and your feelings create your reality.
 
Learn to self-regulate your beliefs and your feelings.
 
 
No one can do it for you.
 
No one owes you anything
 
You cannot make someone else do it in your place
 
Find your center.
 
It is that which never moves and can’t be moved.
 
The center is nowhere and everywhere
 
It is that which has thoughts but is not thought
 
It is that which has feelings but is not feeling
 
It is that which is.
 
It is I AM
 
I AM one among many
 
I AM and you will find your true self
 
I AM and you will find your power
 
I AM and you can weather any storm
 
I AM the storm.
 
 
 
 
 
 
 

Dear Matt,
 
At the age of 36, you will lose your mind.
 
You will also lose your job, your reputation and your dignity. You will lose your money. You will lose your career. You will lose your marriage. You will lose your house. You will lose access to your children. You will lose control over your money. You will be pursued by people you trusted, lawyers, accountants, credit card companies, banks, medical boards, the IRS, and Medicare. At one point, someone will joke with you and say, “at least they can’t take away your birthday.”
 
Sounds scary, right?   It is. No question. It’s terrifying. It sucks and it keeps on sucking for years.
 
I don’t want to dwell on this much longer but you need the heads up so here’s a summary of the stuff that breaks you.
 
By the age of 46 you will have recovered from opiate addiction that started after contracting meningitis while working in the ER. You will serve an eighteen-month suspension and spend five years of pissing in cups to get your medical license back. You will leave the big city ER’s and go back to work in ER’s across the state of Ohio.
 
In 2014, you will discover your marriage isn’t what you thought it was. You will try to salvage it only to find that your first wife doesn’t want what you want.  You will go through the trouble that comes when a white professional male seeks integrity from his wife. You won’t find it, and instead you will have to endure emotional upheaval, blatant lies, threats to your professional life, financial manipulation, homelessness, massive legal bills and huge tax problems.
 
Fortunately, your first wife will be unsuccessful in depriving you of a relationship with your kids. In the end, you keep your parental rights but lose your home and all the equity in the marital assets. You will be compelled to fund the divorce process which will leave you with all the debt. Your first wife will walk away from a 20-year marriage where she never once behaved as a partner with a house, a car, minimal student loan debt and false narrative about how she was the victim. 
 
That’s just  the personal side. The professional side sounds even worse.

As I’ve told you already, you find success early. You become an ER doc. You fly in helicopters and work with SWAT teams. But the healthcare system isn't what you thought it was and you become another cog in the machine. You will become skilled labor with no control over your practice. Corporations will reap the financial rewards of your work while avoiding any responsibility for their failed policies and programs. You will carry the legal risk but it will be the patients who will suffer the most.
 
As for your finances, you might have guessed already but your earning potential makes you a target. No matter how much debt you have, the people around you (ex-wife, lawyers, accountants) will see you as an endless supply of money. You’ll have to figure out a way to balance all the debt.

The first few years after you recover from addiction are the toughest. You’ll be treated with a level of disgust and hostility you never thought possible. It will make earning a living more than a little complicated.
 
Getting paid will be tough. You’ll work days, nights, evenings, weekends and holidays. At one point you’ll wait 2 months for a paycheck from a hospital system that brags about its 8-Billion-dollar revenue stream.
 
Eventually you’ll figure out that your medical education did not include any information about curing disease or restoring people to health. You only learned about symptoms and disease, surgery and drugs.
 
You will see the people around you get fatter, and dumber and sicker. You will meet thousands of people who went to their doctor and only got worse. You will meet hundreds of people who did everything they were told only to be left injured, sick, and abandoned. They’ll come to the ER as the place of last resort.

Eventually you’ll see the truth. The healthcare system turns human suffering into money more efficiently than it turns medical care into health.

And that’s why I'm sitting in my truck writing this note.  

It all sounds tough right? It has the makings of a decent book, right? People will want you to tell that story because they can connect to the emotion with which you tell it. 

But guess what...that same emotion will keep you replaying the story until you decide to stop. You will literally relive the story and identify with the energy of that life each time you tell it. Repeating this story will keep you stuck. It is the siren on the shore of your life. Fall for this song and you will never get away. Believe what you think and you'll stay stuck in it forever.

You have to get over it. You can get over it. You will get over it. 
 
I know...I know....You followed the rules. You played nice. You were a good little Christian boy. You were a virgin when you got married. You never cheated. You worked your ass off to become a doctor. You chose to live in a hospital and serve others while others in your age group lived their lives and did whatever they did. You got sick. You nearly died. You got better. You submitted to the process. You earned back every responsibility you were given. You did the job. You paid the bills until the bills became bigger than your paycheck. All the money you earned went to someone else. Your only option will be to watch it all fall. You can’t work your way out. You can’t wish your way out. You can’t even wait your way out and you certainly cannot think your way out.

Right. Enough already. You're done with that life.
 
One day you will sit your truck and look around. You’ll recognize this place. It’s called the bottom. It’s different than the ones that came before. It’s the bottom where you see that everything you believed in was an illusion. It’s the bottom that comes when you finally see the truth of who you are.
 
And that’s it. You just are.

You are not the stories you tell about yourself.

You are not the things that happened to you.

You are not even the thoughts and feelings you think and feel. 

​You just are.

And then a funny thing happens.
 
You find peace. Peace that passes understanding.

You know there’s something beyond your little self.
 
You know there are forces you cannot comprehend.

You know there is a purpose even if you cannot define it.

You know nothing is what it seems.
 
The illusions have lost their hold.
 
They don’t carry the same threat or trigger the same fears.
 
You’ve absorbed all the hurt and transformed it into life.
 
You know you can do it again (and you will).
 
You will find freedom when there’s nothing left to lose and you will know that you can live come hell or high water.
 
So, what are you going to do with it?




 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 

​Dear Matthew,
 
In the last letter, I threw out the spoiler that you will become a doctor. I’ll follow that up in this letter with another spoiler – the modern healthcare system isn’t about medicine, it’s about control.
 
Control?  Yes. The modern healthcare system is an extension of government control.
 
I’ll keep this as simple as possible.

Doctors get paid to treat disease by performing tests and prescribing drugs and surgery.
 
The sicker someone gets, the more stuff the doctor must do, the more they get paid and the more the drug companies get paid.
 
See the problem?  Poor choice of incentives if you wanted doctors to make people healthy…..just sayin.
 
Now add another layer.
 
The government enforces a law that says every employer of a certain size must provide health insurance. The government also collects taxes to fund its own healthcare insurance programs.
 
These laws allow private interests and the government to take your money before you have a chance to use it. You no longer control those dollars. You no longer have a say in how they will be used. You no longer have a vote in what counts as medicine and neither does your doctor.

Your hard earned money leaves your paycheck before you get it to fund government programs and private businesses which control medicine by deciding what will and what will not be covered. Now go back and read the first line - Doctor's get paid to treat disease by performing tests and prescribing drugs and surgery.  Who decided that was the best way to get healthy?
 
See the problem?  
 

Letter #2
 
Dear Matthew,
 
I know you really want to be a doctor. I also know you'll work your ass off to become one so I'm writing this note to give you some advice.

1. Chill out. Relax. Drop the driven, type-A superhero bullshit and learn to go with the flow. It will all work out, trust me.

You become a very good doctor. You earn awards and graduate from medical school with honors. You match in emergency medicine and become a chief resident. You end up doing everything you thought a doctor should do and a bunch of stuff you didn’t. You’ll also leave your chosen specialty before your career is halfway through. The most important things is that you enjoy the ride. It's your life and you only get one lap around the track.

2. The healthcare system is a jumble of competing special interest groups who leverage complex financial arrangements to exploit disease and convert human suffering into money.  I'll dig into this one over the course of several posts.

3. I've said this before. There's no such thing as alternative medicine. Everything is medicine whether it helps you or harms you.  Breathing is good medicine. Smoking too much is bad medicine. Running is medicine. Running to the point of exhaustion is bad medicine. 

4. The scientific method cannot establish facts. It can only test hypotheses. Dogma is antithetical to the scientific process. Keep an open mind. Challenge the established doctrine. Push the limits.

4b.  Pushing the limits will not be tolerated. You will be labelled a disruptive physician and pushed out. When this happens, leave. Don't linger. It's a gift.

5. Special interests control medical education. You are an unwitting participant in a complex financial scheme designed to turn your time and energy into money for someone else. Do your best and help as many people as you can before you leave.

6. Keep your skeptical mind. Never stop asking yourself why things are done the way they are. It will lead you to the truth.

7. You are not in complete control of your life. Forces beyond your comprehension dictate much of what you think and how you act.

8. You will reach a time when your awareness will disrupt your programming. The illusion will fail, you will not. Don't give up.

8. Reality isn't a constant. Learn to adapt to changing circumstances. It will prepare you for the time when you become aware of your true self.
 
Oh, and don’t worry. My telling you this won’t blow it and it won’t make bad things happen. Remember, this letter will enter your consciousness like a dream. It’s just a seed in your subconscious. 

Regards, 

Doc Evenhouse